Your studies right now are like those tangerine boxes — everything looks promising on the surface, but you're finding empty shells when you dig deeper. Maybe you've been cramming for exams only to realize you don't actually understand the material. Or perhaps that course you were excited about turned out to be poorly taught or irrelevant to your goals.
Here's the thing: you're playing the role of Cao Cao in this story, getting frustrated when reality doesn't match expectations. I met a grad student once who spent months researching what she thought would be groundbreaking work, only to discover someone had already published the exact same findings. She was furious, ready to quit entirely.
The lesson isn't that you're doomed to fail, but that you're approaching learning with the wrong mindset. You want immediate, tangible results — the sweet fruit inside. True learning often requires sitting with confusion, wrestling with concepts that don't make sense yet.
Right now, you're probably trying to force understanding through sheer effort, like Cao Cao swinging his sword at sheep. That approach will leave you exhausted and more confused than when you started. The 'poor' grade here suggests your current methods aren't working, but that doesn't mean you lack ability.